waaaaaahhhhh..... sino naman yan!!!! ahehehehe...... *ganda ko noh?* joke.. ahehehe

Hindi naman ako masyadong masaya ano?? ahehe... Sa Robinsons po iyan.. after the play... with my classmates!

Wahaha... Me, kriz, edward and hazel at the rob..

Wow.. blog before my immersion in Batangas.. hehe.. I opened up our yahoo group ahse-2i.. and I saw this pictures uploaded by one of my classmates!! woohoo.. This was taken during our last watch of play at St.Paul University for our English class.. After the play... we went to Robinsons Place to play billiards..

Chill Happy Sunday

Our class went to Greenbelt 1 for us to watch The Boor And The Proposal. It was a 2 in 1 play at held at The Repertory Philippines. The Boor was about a creditor hounds a young widow, but becomes so impressed when she agrees to fight a duel with him, that he proposes marriage while The proposal is a story that tells of the efforts of a nervous and excitable young man who starts to propose to an attractive young woman, and who instead gets into a tremendous quarrel over a boundery line.

The play was not good unlike the first one that we watched at St. Paul University which is Chinoi. It was so boring and I was so sleepy while we're watching the play. It was like my lymph nodes are trying to convince me that after sacrificing my P250.00 for that stupid play (sorry for the term), at least I will have a benefit from it for my English class.

After the play, of course, gimik is in the mind already and we first thought of going to Katipunan for dinner. But before that, along the way, we saw Miriam Quiambao in a flower shop! I was totally out of my mind asking for her picture and I'm not really that desperate because she's a human too, but the fact that I idolized her before and until now because of her sincerity and humbleness and even though she's morena, she's still beautiful inside and out.. And back to the story.. We decided to eat at Pizza Hut and we're like terrible people who's asking for alms! (exage) hehe.. I mean, we're not suited for the place, but still, we can pay it off.. So we ate and of course, kwentuhan to the max. The company was me, Kriz, Krizzia, Bevs, Alvin, Don, Kevin, William, Melong, Leann, Jozelles, and Doms. It was a night-out fun! i even got a party hat and ask them to write in it as a remembrance..

We wrote at the party hat:

Hindi ko to makakalimutan!!
-Pepay

Ang cute ng experience for this day.. hehehe!! kakaiba!!
-Jozelle

Ang saya-saya ngayon grabe! sobra dame nangyari.. as in..
-Kriz

Okay lang,,, Mejo masaya naman.. =p
-Melong

Grabe saya.. Astig lang.. cool..
-Bebs

Grabe! Ang galing ng loveteam! nakakakilig! sana mapanuod ko yung Aladdin! haha! mas nakakakilig yon for sure!! Haha..
-Donibee

Masaya naman.. ang dame kasi namin. .si Jozelle ang takaw.. hehehe
-Krizzia a.k.a. Lumnay

Extra lang poh!! Toinks..
-Alvin

Ang ganda ng "repertory" sa 2nd floor, Greenbelt 1, Paseo de Roxas St. Makati City.. Babalik-balikan ko yon.. Panoorin niyo rin.. (ang Plastic!!)
-William

Thank you sa pagsabit niyo sakin! hehe..
-LeeAn

So there you have it.. After the dinner, we went to Bubble Gang to chill-out.. There, they ordered alcoholic beverages and of course the pulutan. I didn't ordered anything because that time I was so full and I spent almost half of my allowance upto thursday,. so I just went there really to hang out with my classmates. I stayed only for 30 minutes and got home early (I was such a good girl that time because I really told my parents the truth about my sunday gimmick after the play) *unbelievable isn't it?!*.. hehe..

Love, Love, Love..

wooho0... nice topic.. well, I was like Dr. Love not so long ago.. I was helping out 3 of my friends at Sta.lucia.. Michael, Erika and Nimrod.. It is very confidential so I won't detail it anymore (even though many of us know the real story behind the scenes) Well, It just came out and I realized that I can help others as long as I want and as long as I'm concern but... me, myself and I can't handle situations on my own! I keep telling my friends every suggestions and advices because everything is based in my own experience and I don't want those bad things that happened to me will happen to them. *sigh*

In my own love life... Still the same... confused on whom will i choose and whom will I let go.. scared in all the consequences that will happen after I decide..

"Love changed me; the way I think, the way I act, the way I decide.. Sometimes, I even go against my principles and beliefs in life.. Loving doesn't mean I'll be happy always; sometimes, all it provides me is pain and misery.. Yet, I was blinded by strong emotions that I failed to see reality.. Sometimes, letting go is the answer; it hurts like hell, but I will soon realize that it's better to suffer the pain and see the person I love to be happy... =(

Me with my mom... (o0ops.!!..) joke.. *ambitious* That's Miriam Quiambao.. I saved up my guts to ask her for a picture.. I'm so overwhelmed because I idolized her because of her morena beauty and being sincere and humble..

During our dinner at Katipunan Pizza Hut with the rest of the cast; me, don, doms, krizia, kriz, melong, leann, cadaver, joz, william, bevs and alvin...

... Kriz, me and bevs...at Pizza Hut..

The Bubble Gang.. Melong, Leann, Don, William, Kriz, Doms, Krizia, Bevs, Cadaver, Jozelle"s", Alvin and me!..

Me again with Kevin George a.k.a. Cadaver... taken while ordering at Bubble Gang..

That's me with Krizzia at Pizza Hut Katipunan.. (guess who's hand is that..)

Two of the bad habits that I really don't dare to try. Drinking and smoking is a big no-no for me.. (But it doesn't mean that my friends are bad influence to me, they're just having fun) -taken at Buble Gang Katipunan.

**sigh**

Wala lang.. May naalala lang ako. Naglalaro kasi ako ng exceed, tapos saktong kakatapos lang niya sumayaw tapos turn ko na, nung pagkatapos kong sumayaw, tumapat ako sa electric fan para magpatuyo ng pawis tapos bigla niya akong nilapitan para alukin ng tubig.. Wala lang.. Nung mga oras kasing iyon, nasa state of shock ako kasi in the first place, nagulat ako at kinausap niya ako in personal, knowing na hindi kami nagkikibuan. Ang weird lang kasi, nung time na yun, saktong pagabot niya ng tubig sa bote ng c2 at pagsabi niya sa akin na "ubusin mo na to" parang anime na biglang flash back sa isip ko yung mga alaalang hanggang ngayon hindi ko parin magawang iwanan sa malayong lugar. Ang cute lang kasi, para akong yung may "pop-up balloon" sa ulo, yung sa comics.. hehe.. naalala ko lang bigla.. kasi galing kaming Sm North at Laguna ngayon, ayun.. while I was in the car, I was reminiscing those happy moments with him. Ang masaklap pa doon, pinipilit kong isipin si Frank pero, wala talaga.. parang nababad-trip lang ako. Ewan ko ba.. kahit naman papano, minahal ko rin yung lalaking yun, pero wala talaga akong naramdaman na "voltage".. *huh??* ahehe.. basta.. pero sabi nga ni Lou, pareho kaming may kasalanan kaya kami nagkakaganito. Lalo na ako, ako ang may pinakamalaking pagkakamali sa aming dalawa. The fact na niloloko ko yung sarili ko ay isang mahirap na pagsubok na para sa akin. pero hindi dahil sa tinapos ko na ay tumatakas ako sa mga pagkakamali ko, pero, ito lang ang magandang paraan dahil una sa lahat, kung talagang kami, kami! It's a matter of choice naman eh, I chose to be without him because I think he'll be more concentrated with his work and with his life without me. In fact, he has a life before I came.

Haii.. feeling ko wala nang problema, pero feeling ko hindi ako matahimik. Parang may gusto akong mangyari na hindi ko naman magawang mangyari dahil hindi ko naman pwedeng diktahan ang mga dapat mangyari sa akin. Grabe.. bat kasi ganun, pag nagmahal, nakakabobo.. pero ok lang, "during" the love ka lang naman nagiging bobo eh, pero "after" that, marami ka namang natutunan.. yun nga lang.. expect the unexpected when the moment comes the 2nd time around. (labo) ahehe.. anyway.. Sobrang gusto kong magka-world war ngayon.. ewan ko kung bakit.. gusto kong makasapi ang Pilipinas sa Soviet Union.. Tapos isa tayo sa mga magaling makipagdigma.. Nakikipagsapalaran para maibalik ang dating halaga ng piso... Para mabigyang katarungan ang paghihirap ng bansa.. Haii.. iba talaga pag impossible ka magisip.. One attitude ng isang martyr... Ang alam na ngang mali, pinipilit parin na tama. Alam na ngang niloloko, nagbubulagbulagan pa. Alam na ngang malungkot, pinamumukha mo pa yung sarili mo na masaya.. Ang labo na noh? Kasi halo-halo nasa isip ko ngayon.. kung anong lumabas sa isip ko, yun yung tina-type ko sa ever loving pc ko.. hehe.. Basta.. ang bottom line is.. mahal ko parin siya.. kahit may nasaktan akong iba at kahit may mahal siyang iba. *sabi ko na nga ba eh.. tototohanin ko parin yung pinangako ko sa kanya* pero bahala na ang kapalaran..

Maliban sa problema ko sa puso.. Medyo nakabawi naman ako ng saya pagdating sa studies. Nakabawi talaga ako sa mga grades ko.. And I'm really happy about it. Malaki ang itinaas ko this midterms compared nung prelims.. Ito, haggard nanaman ako this week kasi, sa 17 may play kaming papanoorin sa G4 para sa english.. Nervous system sa Anatomy.. Return Demo ng Handwashing, bedmaking(occupied/unoccupied), body mechanics, Range of Motion sa Health Care Lab namin.. tapos play sa Health Ethics at Oral recitation sa mandarin.. well.. kaya ko to.. medyo mas naging inspired kasi ako this midterms at ewan ko kung bakit.. dapat nga depressed ako dahil sa nangyayari sa amin ni Frank pero di ko alam bakit opposite ang nararamdaman ko... pero feeling ko alam ko kung bakit.. aking nalang yun hehe... Haii.. sana makapag-2nd sem pa ako.. at kung maaari.. maging alumni ng CEU.. Haii... Good luck sa akin..

Sige, antok na ako.. siya nga pala.. Help naman.. Tagal ko na hinahanap to eh, yung lyrics ng Complacence by Tomiko Van english version.. wala lang.. if someone can help me, it is highly appreciated.. hehe.. Thanks.

Singlehood...

I'm single again.. don't ask

I texted him just a while ago..

Si Anna to. Just want to let you know that it's really too late. I can't handle things anymore. The more you act as if you're a stranger, the more I loose my hope in bringing back the love that we used to have. I guess we're really good in being just friends. If you just know how hurt I was. But it's ok, it's a good preach you taught me. I've been waiting for you for so long, and still, you didn't made a move. I realized that the "effort issue" is not a big deal for you because the real you is not an "effort-giving " type of person but a man with a "kung ayaw mo, huwag mo" syndrome.And I can't do anything about it. It's really hard to do this but i have to. It seems that I'm the only one who's doing all the effort. I guess I did my part. Let me say this for the last time.. I LOVE YOU.. Hope you'll be more successful with your work and I know you'll be more happy if you're not in my hands. and besides, according to Alvin, you lose almost your whole love for me. And wala naman akong magawa to bring it back. I did the best I can pero hindi moko pinansin, hindi mo pinahalagahan yung mga ginawa ko. I know you'll understand that our relationship won't really work. Thank you for everything and I hope you'll find the right girl for you, girl with the right age, right attitude, understanding, beauty & brains. Take good care of yourself and I'll take good care of our memories. Be Safe."

In a week of thinking.. I found out that I no longer know how to handle relationships. It seems that Janus left me his trauma.. I really got affected with it. But I came to realized that I also did my part as Frank's girlfriend. I even left the one I truely love just for him and I even lied to my parents all the time and yet, worst comes.

When I'm in the process of loving a person, I really do take things too seriously. I'm loving them with my heart & soul. But with Frank's case, I honestly can't teach my heart what to do and most especially on what to feel. I know that all of this is my fault. And i'm guilty about it. It took several situations that only damaged my relationship as friends to others. But still, to defend myself.. Man do mistakes. As well as they do not mean it. But the point is, I stepped the wrong path thinking it was right.

I also realized that, or maybe, I found out that, I find it more happier being single. Not because I can do all that I want, but the feeling of having the freedom in all aspects of life. All I can say is that, I'm contented with my life right now.. I'll just focus more on my studies and gain more friends. I'm sure I can live without a guy.. Haii.. what a self-realization.. =(

Nursing Disaster!!!!

After months of not posting an entry, and here I am.. Lots of free time to blog again. (only upto monday) That's because, Midterms is over and at long last, I got my mind peaceful at a moment.
I was definitely a busy person. Even though I got my time to do other activities other than school, I describe myself as a haggard human being. If you come to think of it, I wake up 5:00 in the morning, I'm busy with my school for almost 10 hours a day and 2 hours for my recreation activities, and when I go home, I still have to study for the "everyday" quizes and as a president, manage the whole class and I have bigger responsibilities with my classmates and with the Nursing council. How's that? I always get over-fatigue. I thank God i can still manage everything and let things fall into its right place.
I think this will be a long entry because I missed a lot of things that happened to me not so long ago. And I'm in the mood to express my thoughts into writing.

LeaderShip Training Seminar
08/18-19/06

All Nursing Student Council officers, Year Level Officers and Section Presidents were required to attend the Leadership Training Seminar at Caliraya Re-creation Center Lumban Laguna for 3 days. It was actually my first time, since I'm the AHSE-2I President, I was complied to attend the said seminar. It was a great oppurtunity for me necause I learned a lot of things about Being a Passionate Leader, How to enhance English Communication and How to prepare proposals. I was inspired by the speakers and because of that, I realized a lot of things that I didn't even thought before.

Mr. Armando Santillana is our first speaker of the day. We were asked to wear casual or comfortable clothes. (As if we're a laidack potato couch) He taught us everything about Team Building. After the Lecture, we went out the Caliraya Auditorium to do the Physical Activities. First, we were grouped upto 25 persons and we are all wrapped with a chinese garter, then we went to the basketball court to build a pyramid with the use of straws and pins. After that, we have to build the word LEAD with the use of our own body, then we went to the obstacle course (just like the movie, Entrapment) after that we played the chase the dragon's tail. Afetr that, my most awaited activity, The Mud Slide.
I was actually excited to learn new things with those kinds of activities which I can't see the point what leadership will have to do with it. but as the activity goes on, I came on to realize what Mr. Santillana said during the Lecture that "In a group, there is no one left behind". When I come to think of it, we were grouped and all of us did the macro-cooperation level, we were united and self-confidently do the activities as one. And that's the essence of being a leader wherein you can't be a good leader if your not a good follower.

One of the speakers was Mr. Crispin Urbanozo. He taught us three of his topics:

*Pinoy Ako,Pinoy Tayo
*Battle Cry: Youth Empowerment
*Superheroes: Principles and Values

I was interested that time and I really make it assured that I listened very well.

Pinoy ako, Pinoy Tayo is simply about Nationalism. We were taught about things that even we are the Future Nurses of the Philippines, we must not forget that we are Filipinos inside and out.

Youth Empowerment or The Battle Cry - We watched the Penshoppe Commercial which is about the Battle Cry of the Youth. I was inspired on this because the commercial striked me a lot wherein Youth was empowered to:
*Choose the right thoughts - Freedom to choose
*Set your mind on good things - Personal Growth
*Focus on the positive - Positivism
*Have Confidence - Self-confidence

Superheroes, the concept of being a superhero is the principle and values of being a leader. Just what Spiderman said, "Great power comes with great responsibilities".

After Mr. Urbanozo discussed all of the topics I said a while ago, He described the Filipinos, The youth and most especially us, future nurses as SALT which means Student Advancement Through Leadership Training, which actually means that even though we taste salty, still, salts gives the finest and natural taste of the food that we eat.

Before all of that, we had a group activity wherein we will conduct a certain commercial pertaining one product or company. The assigned product for our group is the famous Coca-Cola Company. We planned to do the Nikki Gil Song Commercial, Christmas Spirit, Ito and beat sabay sabay, Office Conflicts and Party People. The concept was a taboo when our Coke Fairy (which is Ate Trista) pass by every scene, the taboo will move from conflict to peaceful situation.
I portrayed one role in the Party People Scenario. Wherein, we are in a disco club and we're in a "dull" moment, and when coke fairy passed us by, I grabed the coca-cola in can, the the audience see that I drunk and I gulped then after having the coke moment, I grooved to dance with my members then I did the backbend position in the center (which caused me so much backpains).
Anyway, we we're happy about the outcome because we never expected that we will perfectly performed the commercial so well in a short span of time to practice evereything.

The last day of the LTS. and here, I thought a lot of things:
"I realized that A true and real leader comes with his/her 3 companion, Discipline, Respect & Cooperation. Without those three, you'll not be effective as what you think, but everything that you want to happen to your group will be totally fall out the opposite.
In reality, Hardship makes a man a better person. Things won't be very easy that's why we tend to be more hardworking to succeed and achieve a certain goal. Maybe, we Filipinos lacks knowledge about RESPONSIBILITIES. And yet, we still forget the true essence of being a leader, a model, a listener. Following foot steps will never be easy. To ease the pain, we have to do those things with our heart and soul. Leadership not only tells us to lead and lead and lead, but to uplift the people of the world! Or enlighten the spirits in evey Filipino Youth. In my own experience, I might be a busy person, but, because of Discipline, I learned to define everything from needs and wants. Because of Respect, I learned that If you want things happen this way unto you, then better yet do it first for yourself and to other for you to be respected too. and last, because of Cooperation, I learned that you will not be an effective leader if you are not doing your role as a leader to members."

Community Immersion
08/21-22/06
Based on my LFD (Learning Feedback Diary)

The day before the immersion was the Leadership Training Seminar which I attended starting from aug.18-20. Sunday, when we got home, I was very tired and drowsy. Knowing the fact that I will be immersed on the following day.
Monday, It was my 1st day of community immersion at Barangay Bugaan West Laurel Batangas. I woke up at 4:00 in the morning and checked my things. After the rituals, I went to Don's house and went to school together. After that, we are also accompanied by Micah Abalos of Section-O and we are all starting to get excited for the immersion.

At Jollibee Mendiola, I gathered all my classmates and checked their attendance. We rented a jeep going to Park and Ride. There, I told our treasurer to collect P310.00 for the payment of the transportation. Auditor and secretary also helped.

After the 2nd attendance, I noticed that all of my class mates are being too histerical because of thinking too much about the forms and other stuff. I was also worried because one of my groupmates is late and the other one is dropped. Thank God she arrived before the bus left.

While in the bus, I was the one who lead the prayer, at first it was totally impressive but in the end, all turns out to be comedy plus the fact that my slimy thing on my nose snooze out!!! it was totally embarassing!

I was so excited but a little bit nervouse on what will happen next. During the LTS, Ate Trista (3rd year) was one of my room mates in Laguna, She told me some tips to remember. She told me that their 1st community immersion was also their 1st time not to sleep the whole morning in the middle of the night (I mean "madaling-araw") and I was not that really shocked because I already expected it. But all the things Ate Trista said to me was absorbed.. It was really helpful and now, I am really nervous if I'm going to make it to my 3rd year. As we said in the LTS- "I'm the BACK BONE of College of Nursing"

So we arrived at Sto. Tomas Market for the so-called "shopping". Others photocopied their forms, some bought food and toiletries and I.... I just went out to windowshop! haha.. Since I'm an addict when it comes to Hello Kitty, there was this store that looks like they smuggle Hello Kitty stuffs from Japan. I asked the prices of the doormat, bags, etc. and it was all out of my budget! and I really can't afford to buy it. After that, I also looked at the DVDs which are 8 in 1 and I bought a crystal casing for my cellphone.

Anyways, after the marketing, we straight ahead went to Laurel Batangas, The CIs (clinical instructors) went on meeting with the BHWs (Barangay Health Workers) and assigned different families to different students. I was assigned at Ate Fely's residence with Hazzel as my partner.

Thank God that Ate Fely is a very kind mother and she's not really that "snob" kind of person. She sees to it that she takes good care of her children and put them on the top of her list. The first thing me and Hazzel did was to share our food provision and I cooked corndbeef for lunch. I baby-sit Ate Fely's youngest son, Errol, while she cleans the house and while Hazzel is washing the dishes. After that, we went on story telling with Ate Fely about our different aspects of life. I listened to her and I observed. I realized a lot of things which I can't handle all by myslef. Because there are things that I never imagined that they will live without any other things like refrigerator, etc. After That, we changed our clothes and started to interview Ate Fely about her profile. Then we proceed to the Barangay Hall for the orientation of the following forms for requirements.

After an hour of discussion, we went back again to our foster parents for the interview. I interviewed Ate Fely all through out the day about: Multifactorial Phenomenon & Persons Gordon. The night at 6:00, we have our dinner and helped Ate Fely for the household chores. And again, continuation of our interview upto 8:00 pm. After that, we rewrite all the forms and slept at 9:00pm. We decided to alarm my cellphone at 12:00am. After I woke up at 12, I started finishing my requirements. Because of my drowsiness, I took a bath at aroung 1:00 am to overcome my sleepiness and started finishing my requirements again. 5:00 am, I decided to sleep for about an hour and I already prepare myself for the Healthy Lifestyle Before we go exercise, I rewrite my Attachment B as fast as I could.

At the Barangay Hall, we went on an exercise for the Healthy Lifestyle and after the exercise, we took our post test for the community immersion and I was confident with my answers only in MFP but in Bag Technique, I think I'm going to fail on that. After the quiz, we went back to our foster parents, but before that, we first hanged-out at our groupmate's house with Nanay Anastacia, she gave and offered us a drink of a Fresh Buko juice. And she even invited us for lunch (but unfortunately, we're running out of time). When we came back to our house, I took a bath and packed my things. Farewell to Ate fely and her kids! After that, we waited for almost 30 minutes for the rain to stop, and while waiting, I performed a Physical assesment to Ate Fely. After that, we waited for the tricycle driver to fetch us. When the driver came back, we went to Konsehal Maligaya for the assembly.

Inside the bus, I collected all my groupmate's requirements and LFDs and also their TRCs and for the attendance.

*** I learned a lot of things with this kind of activity. I know that this is my first step to my journey to in the world of Nursing. This isn't a joke that's why I'm so serious about this. Even though I got low grades, I still do my best to enjoy and at the same time gain more knowledge."

Haggard to the fullest!

That week, It felt like I got my brain damaged.. I did a lot of activities and it really makes my week a hell of being a busy person. I experienced the pain of agony, sleeping for almost 3 hours every night and passing of requirements with my extra effort in it. I felt like it was a Nursing disaster! hehe.. But if I come to think of it, this is only the start and I really have to deal with it because when I become a 3rd, 4th year, I will do a lot, or more activities than the usual.

Moja..

Problems again with the lovelife.., and still.. breaking-up happened. But we're back again yet I'm still confused.

During my Physical Assesment with Ate Fely...

During our Healthy Lifestyle...

During my interview with Ate Fely...

That's my Foster parent.. Ate Fely and her youngest son Errol...

That's the house of Irish and Ikay's Foster parents.. At the back is the house of our foster parents...

Picture Taking with my groupmates.. Ahse-2i1.. (together with aves, ryan, and penduco)

Our Clinical Instructors.. Mr. Villegas, Mr. Yaranon, Ms. Acosta and Ms. Ong...

I'm with Ruby, Cyra and Fairy at konsehal Maligaya...

Picture taking during the arrival at Konsehal Maligaya with Jonnathan, Ikay and Irish..